hi,jessie



I was so astonish after reading your letter. I just don't know what

to say, I didn't expect you to do such a choice suddenly. As for me,

It's incredible! Bcause I had thought what a lovely you made! If others

know you did that, they would think you are crazy! If i were you, I

should have a hard time making up my mind, but you did it! i admire

your brave! and I believe you had found your true love(If lang knows

what I said, he would kill me:)). You said you often quarried for the

different opinions, yes, I feel the same way between I and flybit. But

I don't have the nerve to do it as you, I know I bury my mind in the

sand. I'm just taking one day at a time. I hope it turns out all right.

sign, I and flybit, I don't want to say anymore.



At first, please don't take offense, I only wanted to ask some

question, of course, if you mind, you can keep slience. Please pardon

me outspoken. When did you make your mind to part with lang? In

domestic or at the time of going board? When did you agree Michael to

make his GF? Since you have loved Michael for 3 years, why don't you

told lang this early? I can't imagine Lang's feeling when you told

him about the truth, for you are all his close friends.



But one thing i have to say, would Michael go aboard in the

future? if you loved each other, sometimes distance and time would

change everything. And that missing lover is a suffering, exactly.

hehe...



Ok, let me say bye, and see your next letter:)



happy everyday:)

yours sally





当时看完jessie的信，心里其实很复杂，根本无法用自己仅有的单词来组合

出当时的感受，所以我给jessie发的是中文邮件，我对她说我此刻无法用英语来

写出我的心情。但很久没有得到jessie的回音，我不相信jessie拒绝给我回信，

所以我只好用拙劣的英语写了上面的邮件，不管它存在多少语法错误，我相信

jessie能明白我所说的意思。



其实，我还有许多感受并没有告诉jessie，当初我想出国有一个原因就是想

逃避，逃避他，也逃避现在的生活。我觉得时间有时可以改变许多东西。也许几

年后的我回来后，许多人或事都已经改变了，可能许多是那种不可唤回的改变，

也许自己和他的心境也都变了，即使真的要结束，也是那种淡淡的感觉了，不会

给自己和他带来太深的伤。而lang想和jessie一块出去，原意是想能和他所爱的

人在一起，不让时间和距离去改变他已经拥有的，却想不到反而要他面对面地接

受jessie带给他的残酷，我无法想象他当时接受这个事实的心情，两个都是他的

好朋友，但他们同时在感情上伤了他，可以说欺骗了他，而他还要在那以后的2年

里，每天面对着昔日的情人，这可以说是一种残酷，不管对谁，没有人能抹去自

己的记忆，何况5年的点点滴滴！虽然jessie说他们还是close friend help each

other there，我倒希望jessie不要这么做，这会让lang更难受，当失去所爱的

人时，即使是和她有关的零零碎碎都会勾起他的痛，何况要天天面对她呢？感情

有时就是这么伤人，就是让你痛得无处可逃。



要是有一天，当我们不得不分手时，我希望在以后的日子里，最好什么关系

都不是，最残酷的就是做所谓的普通朋友，如果哪天我要面对这种痛苦，如果他

要我继续做他一般意义上的朋友，我不会接受，我宁可逃避，我怕每次见到他都

会成为我的一种心痛，还是散了吧，让时间去慢慢愈合我所有的伤，而所谓的朋

友只会一次次残忍地揭我已经结了痂的伤口，让我时时地痛。



那天下午我给她发的邮件，第二天早上我就收到了jessie的回信。